i dont know who i really am, today.

:: Prayer of Saint Francis // Sarah Mclachlan ::

Lord make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred let me sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon.
Where there is doubt, faith.
Where there is despair, hope.
Where there is darkness, light.
And where there is sadness, joy.

O divine master grant that I may
not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
To be loved as to love
For it is in giving that we receive-
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned.
And it's in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen.

What does it mean to RUN ?

Everybody justify their actions of running away with thousands of reasons. But does it really a good thing to do? Some might think that there's always a reasonable cause why people might hide and run. The question is, does is solve the problem?

I've been having this feeling of running from my stagnation. My life is like a boring movie, with nothing new. Everything that happens, is a rerun of what i once had. I'm tired of it. I want something new. Cant i just run away from this one?

That Caring Spirit

"The LORD God placed the man in the Garden of Eden to tend and care for it." >> Genesis 2:15

As the Left Behind say it, God in a way installed this caring chip on our being. And it started since He told us to tend and care for the garden of Eden. We are given this special spirit, to care and tend for others. Sometimes it happens when we cant even care for ourselves. We left our life abandoned without any proper love and caring. We blame our surroundings, we blame God for what happen in return, when it was actually our mistakes.

And so today I quote:
"Caring began in Eden and has been an essential part of humanity every since. A caring spirit comes from the heart of God."

It's been a long time since I wrote anything in this blog. I find it rather hard to write about God and what He's been doing in my life, when what I've been doing lately is not much for glorifying Him.

Life ahs been such a master at trial. Foolishly, I let myself lost the battle instead of fighting harder than ever.

Each and every one of us has a different point of view, different dreams, different voice, different mind, and different goals. You must be content with what God really have in store for you. But most of the time, we let ourselves be taken with what we feel, hear, and see. The things that are actually mortal, and short living.

Kingdom of God Vs. World's System

In the Kingdom of God…
…a person is lifted up by humbling himself, not by exalting himself in the eyes of others.
…strength is found through weakness, not by being confident in your own abilities.
…fullness comes by becoming empty, not by running after pleasure.
…life is gained by losing it, not by looking out for “number one.”
…riches come by giving them away, not by storing them up.
…greatness comes by becoming a servant, not by seeking power and celebrity.

Intimacy

God reaches out to us, offering an intimate relationship—as intimate as husband and wife or father and child, a commitment that is forever, a love relationship such as we have never known before.

praise be to God who always shows His everlasting love and mercy, even when we're still sinners. Who offers us so many things that we dont deserve. Who paid all our wrong doings in full. Who's always faithful even when we betrayl Him. Who always gives second chance for more than 1000 times ...

Praise be to Jesus ...
Praise to our Father in Heaven who always there to carried us when we're weary, worn, and weak ...
Whose gentle hands always hold me when I'm broken

:: My Redeemer Lives // Nicole C. Mullin ::

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
Who told the ocean you can only come this far?
Who showed the moon where to hide 'til evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
All of creation testify
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives

The very same God that spins things in orbit
He runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know my Redeemer, He lives

To take away my shame
And He lives forever, I'll proclaim
That the payment for my sin
Was the precious life He gave
But now He's alive and
There's an empty grave

Now I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know my Redeemer, He lives

HeLlO HeArTbReAk!!

no such thing as smooth life...
rough and edgy life makes you so damn stronger!!